” I dint choose to be a failure.”

She sat in pitch darkness.
In the vast stretches on a worn out park bench.
Head held in her hands.
Creased brows and teared eyes
Her face was red with fear and dejection.
A lump in her throat causing pain.
She kept uttering these words.
She I dint choose to be a failure.”
Tears and thoughts continued to flow.
She dint wanna let her parents down.
She dint wanna be incapable.
She slogged and slogged but all in vain.
Life and luck were never on her side.
She kept uttering the words.
” I dint choose to be a failure.”
She tried real hard to make her folks proud.
But could never match what her bro did.
She hung in there, fighting her own battles.
She tried to explain to them as well..
But no one understood her.
They judged her all the time.
She felt pressured,Under the scan always.
She kept uttering the words.
” I dint choose to be a failure.”
She dint earn big bucks
Felt terrible all the time.
All people saw was her failures.
None recognized her efforts.
She made sacrifices too
But still remained a looser.
She kept uttering the words.
” I dint choose to be a failure.”
No one read her eyes
but she could see blame in theirs.
Their words stung
She tried to change it all.
No one told her “Its okay”
it robbed her of her beliefs and faith.
She kept uttering the words.
” I dint choose to be a failure.”

Jolted

All your life you give in
Give in to the wishes of those around you.
You don’t speak up
You don’t express your views.
For a strange reason it even pleased you.
To maintain cordial friendly relations for long.
Probably you thought it was the right thing to do.
And suddenly life knocks sense into you.
You want to change things.
Self respect has now assumed a pivotal role.
Being taken for granted hurts like a hard rock.
You want to lash out at others.
But this demeanor defies your basic nature.
It goes against who you were all this while.
You are not familiar with the rules of this arena.
You fear loosing anyone and anything.
But you are determined.
Is it too late though??