Sleepless Nights Sleepy Days

Sleep deserted him at nights.
A Losing battle with nightmares he fights.
Every night, eyes shut tight.
Only to see visions; he feels the fright.
Surroundings breathe in silence.
His breath is loud, as if in defiance.
He lay awake when it’s time to snore.
His mind into overdrive, like it’s a daily chore.

With sunrise the mind moves in sluggish motion.
As if it is tuned to anti clockwise direction.
He forces himself out of the bed.
Eyes half shut, mind asleep, feeling of dread.
The body no longer responds to caffeine.
10 cups daily, cigarette count is minimum fifteen.
But even the substance stand no chance.
When the soul is in sync with sufferance.

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Combat of the Mind

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I thought it was out of my life
That ugly and mind sapping feeling of worthlessness
Had vanished
If not for good, at least it had gone
To a land far away, for like a vacation
But one day
Without any warning
It crawled its way back in
No knock!
No, “May I come in?”
Appeared like unwanted guests
Making me feel disoriented
Disturbing the allignment of positivity
My heart ached with a familiar emptiness
Creating a deep pit in my stomach
Mocking Me, even laughing at me
Like I am not good enough for anything
Taking over my self belief
Making me give up and give in
I know I have to fight it again
Fight the helplessness
Fight that treacherous rascal
That wore me down from within
I know I have to muscle past the lethargy
Rid my body of its poison
Because I am not okay
To give up control
My feelings and my mind are mine
And some trashy devious made up beings
Do not get to rule me,

The POWER of Uncertanity

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If I float this question, “How many of you plan your life or at least get up every morning with the aim of getting your life in place?”, majority will answer in the affirmative.

And no, this is not wrong. In fact we have all been taught to plan our lives since childhood.
Big plans for high school, college, post graduation, job, marriage, children, travel, vacations, retirement and every other important event.

It’s like we are living from one milestone to another, celebrating each one thinking we have achieved it all and made it big.
Ups and downs are a part and parcel but in the larger picture, they seem like tiny hurdles. For most of us life is a pre-planned journey.

And then bamn, one day something unexpected happens. It could be unexpected good or unexpected bad or sometimes unexpected can’t come back from this situation.

Not all, but a chosen lucky ones are hit by the wave of uncertainty.

You might raise your eyebrow or be tempted to add a surprise emoji here but I say lucky for a reason

In living a planned life, we are not harnessing the power of uncertainty. Because uncertainty just doesn’t bring a lifestyle change, it brings along with it true freedom. It brings a new perspective.

Only those who have been subject to uncertainty, know the value of time. Only they know the true meaning of living in the moment, only they know the real pain behind giving up something you love for something that might not seem pretty at that moment but turns out to be the best phase of their life..

Until uncertainty arrives we all live in this bubble that eventually things will be okay but those who know things can change forever anytime, know how to cease the moment. #CarpeDiem

Nothing brings us on the edge like uncertainty does. With planned lives we move forward in circles but it is not knowing what is next or actually knowing we have limited time that gives us the courage to explore and live fully.

We don’t know it but not knowing actually opens up many paths from the cliche of a planned circle.

So next time if things don’t go as per plan, don’t fret. Don’t blame yourself for going off path and definitely don’t pity yourself. You never know what is around the corner.

Fearing the unknown is one lesson we need to unlearn. Leave the planning to daily mundane To-Do-Lists. Happiness lies in the unexpected.

Embrace it! Embrace Uncertainty!

 

 

राहत की मिठास

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बारिश,
या कहे बुंदों की सैना
जो कभी धम धम करती,
कभी गुस्से से गरजती,
मानो आगे बढ़ते
बादलों को चीरकर
ज़मीन पर बरसकर
बड़ी खुबसूरती से,
करती है हमारा बचाव
बचाव उस ताप से, उस धुप से
हर एक बुंद, जैसे राहत का प्याला।
फुल, पत्तों में फिर चढ़ाती रंग
लाती भीनी सी खुशबू अपने संग।
धुटन का करती है नाश
जीत की खुशी में चमकता है आकाश।
सुखे को करती शांत
मीठी धूनो से शुरू होती हर भोर
जुन के महीने में,
जब ये करती हैं अपना पहला वार
सभी का मन में हे पनपती
खुशी की लहर।

Group Hug

You know that feeling,
The one you get,
When in a tight group hug.
One you get,
When you share 12 year old jokes,
With everyone in that hug,
And laugh every single time.
Each time harder than the last.
That feeling is special!
It can last a lifetime.
Keep it in tact.

The Orange Frame

15 minutes since he placed the order
“Bhaiyya ek Orange Dena.”
He couldn’t wait to get his hands on it
To feel the chill,
All the way from his tongue to toes.

“30 rupiya”, said bhaiyya,
Handing him a glass of orange ice gola
Finally, he got his favourite summer treat
Or let’s say, Retreat.

He dipped the ice shaving,
Deep into the orange Sherbet
All the way, till where the glass ended
And took a long chuski,
Relishing the orange clad ice

With every sip, with every bite,
Feeling the joy of summer
“Bhaiyya thoda aur sherbet milega?” he asked
The flavour making him go, aahhh!

Blissful indulgence,
Savouring each chuski,
Happiness reflecting in his smile,
Captured like a piece of art,
Between the luscious Orange Frame
His lips!!

 

Belongingness

Thank You!!!
From the bottom and,
every crevice of my heart.
To all the lonely people
For making me feel a part,
For becoming my staple.
Knowing I am not alone
Makes every day survival
A lesser degree of tough,
On some occasions even simple.
You lot are my tribe
Close by or far away
To each other’s emotions
We Subscribe!!!

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Share the Good!

Where is the good news?
Where is it hiding?

Arrested, Raped
Died. Molested
Stress, Depression
Attacks, Destruction

Is all that our eyes are forced to read
Or what our ears are forced to listen

Every headline written
Every story reported
Every article shared
Has the scent of gory sprayed on it

Is there no good happening?
Has good become an extinct species?

The answer, probably not!
The answer, it’s all around
The answer, it’s happening all the time
The answer, we need to find it.

Good, it’s just playing hide and seek?
it’s us giving the den all the time.

Look closely, and we shall find it
Oh and we shouldn’t forget to share it.
For even a tiny little piece of information
Is a happy read for our sour eyes.

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For Happiness Sake

As Easy,
As switching on a button
That’s what sadness has become.

An Addiction,
The kind you don’t choose
That’s what sadness has become.

A Companion,
Who is there for you all the time
That’s what sadness has become

The sad part about sadness is
We’ve left happy far far behind
Mixing sadness in our daily grind

How did we drift to this glum side?
When we have an alternative
That is both pretty and positive

Snap your finger and turn it on
Move to the happy state, reborn!

This Guy Loves Mondays

Have you met Raymond?
He loves Mondays
in fact,
He waits for them.
With maximum excitement.

He likes new things
Their shine and the mystery
of unfolding and knowing them.
He loves Mondays
Monday begins a new week.

He enjoys meeting people
listening to their stories
and experiences.
He loves Mondays
Monday makes him meet people.

Chaos is the air he breathes
it takes him away
away from the haunting Sunday calm.
He loves Mondays
Mondays give him a soothing relief.

He loves a delicious meal
The aroma from numerous lunch
boxes, gives his sesnses a high.
He loves Mondays
Monday is the first day of his indulgence.

He likes to be in control,
of his thoughts, which generally
go haywire every weekend.
He loves Mondays
Mondays force him to focus and concentrate.

Have you met Raymond?
He loves Mondays.
He is one amongst us
Only that he has
Found a fresh way to look at tomorrow.